Tuesday, August 28, 2012

hair, again

Hair. 
It's the thing that crowns a girl. 
The thing that makes us feel brave and secure. 
The thing that tells the rest of the world how we see ourselves. 

It can give us crisis after crisis. 
The wrong colour, the wrong cut, the wrong shape. 

They say that when a girl is stressed out, she takes it out on her hair, changing it time and time again, trying to force it to her will, to force herself feel in control of her life again. 

Hair is what we are. 
By our hair, others categorize us. 
By our hair, we obtain control over ourselves. 

I've been stuck in a vicious cycle dying. 
I remember the last time. 
First, i died it red. 
Then i went dark brown. 
Then i went black. 
Then i tried to bleach it, and it went orange, and my hair was a mess. 
After that, i chopped it off. 

And i didn't learn from it. 

I went as a natural brunette for a long while, and then i started hennaing. 
I loved henna, but got sick of being a red head. It didn't feel right. 
So i went dark again. 
It didn't feel right, either, and since i went chocolate, i just counted the days until i could do this. 

oh god, i look like  a boy! 
So i'm back to my own colour again. 
Well, mostly. 
There's still a bit of bittersweet chocolate on the ends. 
I didn't dare go shorter :D 

I like hair. 
You might say i have a fetish about it. 
I remember an old fling... he had blonde hair, down to his waist. 
Good lord how i loved his hair. 

Saying that will make husband look at me funny again :P 

I think this episode of hair dye has finally taught me my lesson. 

I'm most comfortable in my own skin. 
Even if my hair has a habit of pushing out white strands... 

I used to have long hair. 
I used to be a bit skinnier, too :D 

I kinda want that back. 
Not the skinniness. 
But the hair was nice <3


Heather, age 26ish

Monday, August 13, 2012

The Professor's Monthly Homework Assignment: Purses and Bags!



I haven't participated in these things before, but today i wanted to. 
I like purses and bags <3 
Could have picked a better day to do this, though... fell asleep last night at about three, and woke up @ 7:30, so i'm a bit out of it. Everything i've tried to do today has gone completely and utterly pearshaped. 

Let's see if i can make a blog post without messing it up. 

My Mom was young in the 60's. 
She's given me an unbelievably wicked ring from that era, and this purse. 
It's real leather, and though it's a bit impractical, it's really pretty. 
The buckles are all silvery metal, which fits my clothing style quite well. 
The purse used to have a strap, but it was a bit too short so i... used it for another project. 


There's a lock on the purse. 
Only i've managed to lose the key. 
Good thing the purse was unlocked at the time. 


Inside, there's one big compartment divided in two with a pocket. The pocket has a zip which always breaks my nails. 


I haven't used this in months (it's a winter bag), and inside, i found a treasure: 
a used ticket for a nightclub + 5 cents. 


Next up, a true find. 
I worked for a salvation army flea market for a short while, and during that time, i found a cute purse for 2,50. 
It looks vintage, but it's got a row of pyramid studs on it. 
Don't know if they had studs in the time when vintage was born. 
It's a really nice purse, though. 


The leather was in very good condition, so i reckon the purse has hardly been used. 


I feel a bit vulnerable taking this one out: it only closes by a little piece of leather so it's very easy for any passer by to just reach in, and grab whatever is there. 
Luckily, i'm short, so if someone were to reach for something, i'd notice :D 


The next one i got when i was still in shcool. Ages ago, that is. 
It closes by the things you see on the sides (i can't recall the correct word for them) and they make a noise when they snap shut. 
Fun <3


This one has a bit of steampunk feel to it. 
It doesn't get to go out much, since i only have one pair of shoes it works with. 


Every girl needs a clutch in case of a cocktail party. 
Mine was a freebie from UncleYves. 
I've used it once, but held on to it 'cause you never know when you'll need one. 


This is my summer handbag. I take it out when i feel pretty. 
I feel pretty quite often. 
This one is from Mom, too. The story goes. 
My sister got married in Austria in the year... i forget. Anyways, i was her bride's maid. 
She told me not to wear black in any form. I said dammit, and picked silver. 
I had a satin gown of light silver-grey, silver slippers, and this purse. 
Only back then the purse wasn't decorated in this fashion :D 


The pinup-fairy came from a flea market. 
I think i sorta nicked it... which was a really wicked thing to do, but it was on a hat that was on it's way to charity, and someone had told me to just help myself to anything that's going to the goodwill-box, and so i took the pin. 
And felt guilty about it. 
And never told anyone. 
Except now. 


I wanted the purse to have a blingy feel to it, so i hung a keychain on it. 
Heart on one side... 


... attitude on the other. 
This keychain came with my Alpha Ranger boots :P 


Power of alpha. 
I think this is why we clash so much with Mom. 
We're both alpha females. 


Most of what i own has come from a flea market. 
So did a small velvet purse. 
It cost me 1€, but it was a bit too simple for me. 
So i decorated with star-shaped rivets. 


So i have all these cute purses, and know what i usually carry around? 
This. 


I made it myself. It's very practical, but not very flattering. It's quite big and bulky, and not feminine in any way. 
But it fits a lot of stuff inside, and i don't have to worry about it, since it closes with a zipper. 

Stamped my initials on it, just in case everyone around here don't know who i am. 
(that was a joke, really i'm just a bit self-centered) 


I like it Emily tells people to keep away. 
Only i wish she was a bit louder. 


So there. 
That was fun, hope i'll remember to partake in a homework assignment again in the future :)

Monday, August 6, 2012

Skull

Mom and Dad came for a visit this weekend. We met them @ ähtäri, and went to the zoo.
We've only been three times this summer :P
It wasn't too hot, so the animals were out and a bout again. Which is really nice. Husband took a few snapshots, but i can't share them, since he started school, and took his camera with him, and he won't come home until Friday. So you'll have to take my word.
Snowleopard cubs were out. There's two. One was cleaning it's face under Mom's careful supervision, but the other one had gone for an adventure. It was walking about the enclosure in a characteristic kitten-way. It was unbelievably cool, since the kittens only came out a few weeks ago, and already they're brave and trusting and fluffy <3

I'm a cat-person, if you haven't noticed :D

So. After, we had dinner, and then we had sauna. In the morning i got woken up way too early (nine o'clock, it's, like, barely sunup!) and as we were having coffee, Dad brought up the prospect of possibly maybe going... shopping.
In my family, it's the men who say "hey, let's go shopping". Funny, yes?
Anyways, that woke me up better than the three mugfuls of coffee i'd already had. Shopping is my favorite pastime, and, well, Mom and Dad have totally spoiled me by buying me everything and anything i might like.
So we went shopping.

I've turned into a pretty picky shopper, but i did find some yarn. I already turned it into a scarf (see other blog for details) which turned out really nice, though i didn't expect it. Those ruffled scarfs are super-trendy, and i'm not much for trends.


There's one trend, though, which i thoroughly enjoy. Puff-sleeves. I've been looking for a puff-sleeved top for ages, but come up empty. It's too early for them to start showing up at flea markets, and the trend is already dying, so it's hard to find them at shops.
Found one on Sunday, though. There was a whole bunch in super-discount rack. And in my size, too! I picked out a grey one, and found a surprise on the back.


Only made this, so it's ok quality. I like the decorative seams around the arms and in the bottom.


In the back, there's a lace applique skull <3 Now i have two tops with skulls on them :D 


I've been playing around with GIMP... i'm not much of a photoshopper, but practice makes perfect. Or at least improves skills. A bit. A very tiny bit, in my case, since i'm not really that interested in image processing...

Oh! Almost forgot, i cut my hair again. It's short in the back now, so that i can grow my natural color in more quickly. Look!


My roots are really starting to show... i'd forgotten i have golden hair <3 

Translation 

Isi ja äet poikkesivat tuossa viikonloppuna. Käytiin eläintarhassa ihmettelemässä kuinka pienet leopardinpennut olivat muuttuneet parissa viikossa (kello on juuri nyt 1337, se pitää aina muistaa mainita kun huomaa) mytyistä vilkkaiksi ja uteliaiksi kisseiksi. Toinen opetteli naamanpesua Shakiran lempikivellä, mutta toinen oli lähtenyt seikkailemaan ympäri aituuta. Olisi taas voinut koko päivän katsella <3 

Sitten käytiin syömässä ja sitten saunassa, ja aamulla isukki vihjasi että vois vaikka, kun siellä keskisellä olis yksi juttu, käydä ostoksilla. 
Meän perheessä menee tälleenpäin tää shoppaamisvinkvink :D 
Anyways, vaatteet niskaan ja keskisen kauppaan. Löysin lankaa, josta syntyi trendikäs röyhelöhuivi (lisäinfoa toisessa blogissa) sekä onlyn pääkallopaita. Aika ihana, maksoikin jopa 2,95. Oon tuommoista kivaa puhvihihaista paitaa etsinyt siittä asti kun tulivat muotiin nuo tuommooset hihat, ja nyt jo löysin. Son hyvä kun kaikki tapahtuu niin nopiaan. 

Oon innostunut taas tekemään gimpillä muutakin kuin skaalaamaan kuvia. Muistin, että tuhrutyökalulla saa feidattua taustat helposti mutta näppärästi (oon vähän kärsimätön) ni oon sitä jopa käyttänytkin. Saa nähhä miten monta kertaa viihtin, ei oo toi kuvankäsittely koskaan oikein ollut miun juttu. 

Leikkasin muuten tukankin tuossa joku viikko sitten. Itte. Jos meen kampaajalle, se leikkaa ihan päin sanonko mitä, ja sitten saan kotona leikata itte uudestaan. Ni pääsen näin helpommalla. 
Koetan kasvattaa omaa väriä takaisin, ja sehän käy nopiammin jos on lyhyt tukka. Oma väri pilkottaa jo melkein viiden sentin verran. Olin ihan unohtanut, että son aika kivan ruskea <3